There's a whole lot of lovin' going on around here these days.
This morning my mom (on the right) and I went to the church to help with wedding preparations. We worked in the kitchen cutting potatoes and shredding lettuce while the bride (in the middle) and her mother (on the left) worked with place settings, flowers and table arrangements.
A few Saturdays ago we headed over to Kensington Metro Park for the afternoon. I'd heard there were a lot of new baby animals on the farm - and we'd been trying to get to the maple sugar tour for the last couple years.
I bought tickets for the tour, and then we wandered the barn for a little bit while waiting for our time slot.
The beginning of our maple sugar tour began with a little explanation and a handsome young volunteer from the audience to play the part of the tree.
He was pretty proud of his tree skills. "I even swayed very little just like a big tree" He did. Nevermind that he spunked for the next half hour - for a few moments he was an awesome tree with a great attitude.
After the tour, we wandered the farm - a quick tour before heading out to warm up. The weather was cool and damp the day we went - it took awhile to get the chill out.
She's a happy girl now that she's got her ipod fixed
My head hurts after spending the last two nights fixing ipods, nanos and computers. I think we finally have all the bugs and viruses out.
Today is my last day of work for the week - I'm taking the next two days off to enjoy my mom and my brother's wedding.
My mom moved back in yesterday.
We went and got our hairs done
Mark's order of Husky sized pants/shorts arrived yesterday. I had taken him shopping, and several places told me they only carry their Husky sizes online. Children's Place shipped pretty quick. Now he too is ready for the wedding and Easter.
My husband called home yesterday at 4pm and informed us that he'd be flying to Indiana at 8.
I ordered six hot pasties for dinner
I texted my husband that he's giving my mom and complex (It's becoming a joke how many times he ends up going out of town the day she shows up)
He texted back that the trip was canceled, and he'd be home.
We bought him a cold pasty.
Thank you for all the hugs and comments on my last post
I have two pregnancy tests and an unopened bottle of prenatal vitamins up for grabs.
I'm not pregnant any longer as I miscarried at about seven weeks (and I'm okay) but let me tell you - for that time that I thought I was forty-six and pregnant? Whew. And that's an understatement.
We don't make babies easy over here, as I've mentioned before in this post. Having not made babies easy, (this was my second miscarriage) and getting close to the age where menopause can start setting in, that I'd be pregnant at all just didn't land in my thought process. I feel blessed that we have the four that we do.
In fact, when the telltale could be pregnancy symptoms made themselves realized, I Googled menopause. Want to know something? Menopause symptoms are mockingly similar to pregnancy symptoms. Someone has quite the sense of humor.
I was finally coaxed into taking a pregnancy test when the reality of we are going to have to figure out where we will put the baby if I AM pregnant set in.
The test was positive.
These are just a few of the rapid fire thoughts that ran through my mind
We have to move
We Have To Move
WE HAVE TO MOVE
I'm too tired to move.
GREG - Call Randy! We need to build an addition!
This baby will start school the year after Wendy graduates
This baby is going to have to share a room with Wendy
I'm going to give birth to this baby on the side of the road (they closed the local delivery center and I go FAST) I just know it
We're going to need an in car baby birthing kit
*terror set in*
I can't do this
But. Wow. What a blessing. seriously. Maybe we could find a doula to move in for the month of October.
This baby's classmates will think I'm the grandma for sure
oh boy - and I thought I was past the whole to vaccinate or not vaccinate worry
And seriously? I just took that WorkKeys test LAST WEEK - only to learn now that I won't work again for the next SIX YEARS?
Ah, man, and I really like my job
No ballooning for me this year
But now I'll be able to take walks, and go visiting, and bow-bow the baby and do baby and me water aerobics with all the young mothers, and...
they'll think I'm the grandma for sure
I can't WAIT to tell the kids. They are going to Freak!
I need to get organized
oh boy oh boy oh boy
Sherry will never let me hear the end of it after I've teased her for so many years that SHE'D be the one to have a late in life baby
mmmmm....baby smells and rocking chair time. I can do this.
Those were all just thoughts from the first five minutes.
But - it wasn't meant.
The morning that I knew it wasn't meant, I told Greg and he was real sweet and offered to stay home from work. In my non-mushy Finn way I told him that would be fine if he felt he needed to, but that I was going to work. And I did. (and he did too)
Ironically, that particular day I had a precocious first grade girl on my duty list and as I turned her around and marched her back into the bathroom to wash her hands - she turned to me, poked my belly and asked, "Is there a baby in there?"
I don't know why we have to go through the things we go through some times, but we do. Our part is to pull ourselves back up again and keep on trudging. Even when just this past week one of Mark's classmates came up to me and stated, non jokingly and matter of factly - "you're Mark's grandma!" and I nodded, confirming to myself that I was right - if I'd had this baby that's what ALL the classmates would have thought.
I'm working on getting back on track. At the point just before pregnancy I felt like I was finally getting somewhere with exercise and weight loss - having gotten down to the lowest weight I've been in some years - but during the miscarriage process I definitely have had a set back both physically and mentally. I couldn't work out at all during those two weeks as even working two jobs was nearly too much (and if it was too much, I would have said something, or took time off - but as I share this - only four people knew, and one of them was my dentist. long story).
So, now - finally feeling like I'm prepared for the wedding, vacation and Easter - and my body having healed from this miscarriage - I feel ready to refocus.
Wendy and I signed up for a 5K and I'm back to getting my daily exercise in.
Monday is still my favorite day of the week - but I do have a new appreciation for Friday and the weekend now that I'm working. I'm looking forward to a slower paced Saturday tomorrow with swimming lessons having been completed last week and soccer not yet starting.
We'll probably play chess. It's Mark's favorite game. If you don't know how to play - he'll teach you. He gets frustrated when he can't find anyone to play games with him 24/7.
Yesterday I had a much needed catch up day. I was feeling pretty scattered with preparing for three different events at once. (wedding, vacation and Easter) I can multi-task with the best of them - but, well - this month is a test. I feel much better after accomplishing so much yesterday. I made a list as I went:
It was good.
Today I'm going to tackle the laundry room and travel bags.
On the way home from school today, Mark asked if I'd take a picture of him and Tippy so he could have a memory to one day show his children. He's so my kid. I said yes.
He then asked if we could get a new dog right away. I said no.
While both boys are very sad, Brian is struggling a little bit more. We all know that it was the right thing, it'll just take some time to adjust. It's a good teaching moment. I was telling Brian that some people won't have pets specifically because it's too hard to say good-bye, but isn't it worth it to have three (or more) great years of memories in exchange for a few days of sadness? We think so.
And yes, both boys wore the same shirts today. I'm sure it's somehow an April Fool joke that they pulled together, because I KNOW I never bought two of the same shirt in the same size. How they did it, I don't know.